Don't Leave Me Alone with the Whiskey

I see how people do it. I'm just trying not to.

Photo: Poison. Photo Credit: ZZZVuk via iStock Photos, 2018.

We’re down to a swallow of Jameson at the house.

I am afraid to buy more.

I stared at a giant bottle of wine for too long today.

And I wanted her.

I circled my wagon ‘round twice.

Didn’t pull the trigger.

For if I do, who I am to you,

Won’t be so nice.

They’ve thrown the pills at me.

Doctor said, “Never take more than three.”

The sleep I need.

Knows no heed.

What the bottle promises

Fooled the hell out of me.

I’ve been that girl.

Ditched my 20s 20 ago.

Then, gimme a cold toilet, towel, and the right gag

And I’d give that vomit a twirl.

Auntie died.

I’m right tired of cryin’.

If I’m alone with the whiskey and the pills

There is no tellin’ if I’m gonna feel, too, like dyin’.

If I say I ain’t

I’d be lyin’.

I won’t let the Jameson call me to its neck

Or at least I’m damn tryin’.